Hello Friend. All family holiday times remind us
of those loved ones that we have lost and the first Christmas is often
harder than at other times.
Memories of past Christmases stay in your memory for ever, and, I
believe, that's how we want it to be, but pain and sadness are not how
our loved ones would have wanted it.
You will start your Christmas days with your own private memories,
alone with some tears, so very normal, but, many of those memories can
put a smile on your face to meet the day.
If you have family, remember, they also had that loss and possibly
feel the way that you do. I found that taking a few moments together to
talk about that missing family member, the happy memories of past times
and Christ masses and then a few moments to remember in silence, will
help everyone.
Friends that visit may feel unable to have an easy conversation with
you until you mention the loved one that is no longer here and starting
that short conversation will put the friend at ease.
It will be a hard day for you and for very many others that are
doing the same and I send my love to help you through this day. You
may find some help here.